Hey blog readers!
So, I come from the last era where the “old heads” before us passed on lessons bestowed upon them: the ways in how we’re expected to conduct ourselves in the presence of others… even if that means losing yourself..
I discovered that I’d entered a chasm of unconscious behavioral patterns that have warped my entire life… until Now. But in that place, I felt as if every move I made was watched & scrutinized. And no matter what I did, I felt incompetent. I felt in the wrong for not fitting into this premade, refurbished mold that no one else seemed to be having a problem with. For over a decade I’ve questioned myself as a woman, a person, & the security of my future business career. And I almost believed the lie, until the series of unfortunate events (*pun intended) that I’ve sunken into have helped me realize that I needed to relabel myself.
I was subconsciously masquerading as all of my former professors, family members, & those in the generations before who’ve encouraged me in this manner, just like how they were taught. So I don’t blame them. But I know better now.
The last few months I’ve delved deeper into a part of myself I’ve seen itty bitty glances of throughout my life, exploring what makes me tick (good & bad), accepting everything I experienced, & taking my own notes for a change on how I want to proceed into the future. My conclusion: In order for me to make it in this world- successful or not- I must be true to MYself. Not yourSELF. And the trick about that, is first you have to know yourself. I believe there’s a fine line between taking the advice of others & taking it on as a persona. We do it all the time. And the majority of us don’t know & some never will. Which is why people behave “out of character” outside of work or to different people.
The “old school” way of conducting business & handling people, as I see it, is soon to become extinct. We (my generation & the next) are making moves & I’m joining the movement! Granddad’s influence isn’t gone, but the cheap, loud cologne he sprayed to fake the funk is. If you want to make a change: Pay attention to conscious & unconscious habits. Observe them. And then challenge them & ask yourself why you do what you do & say what you say. Your answer or lack thereof will alert you of what to do next… if you’re willing to be honest with yourself.
Honest is right up my alley! Welcome to my spot on the Vine and thanks for hanging with me on Vine Life Faith.
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